How you remind me

Of what i really am.

所以呢？時間過去了這麼久，變的多，也變的不多。

能避免想到的東西就努力去避免，雖然很痛苦。
但是想到會更痛苦。

我很恨這種情況。

不安

如果不能開心，就別眷戀。


但若看也好，不看也罷，都是苦澀，那又該怎地？

看了啊，是懷念；不看，卻是逃避。


為什麼我竟想不起在這種慌張惑亂的時刻，從前是怎麼度過的……

Storm (Lifehouse)

This really tore my heart.
Gosh I miss you so much...stricken I am, as soon as I know it...
Years passed but still the pain so real as if I'm scalded.

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how long have I
been in this storm
so overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
water's getting harder to tread
with these waves crashing over my head

if I could just see you
everything will be alright
if I'd see you
the storminess will turn to light

and I will walk on water
and you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
and everything will be alright

I know you didn't
bring me out here to drown
so why am I 10 feet under and upside down
barely surviving has become my purpose
cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface

if I could just see you
everything will be alright
if I see you
the storminess will turn to light

and I will walk on water
and you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright

and I will walk on water
you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
I know everything is alright
everything's alright

DUSKWATCH

看完了。

headache & heartache.

俄國的文學一向冷硬而紮實，只幾頁就一股腦兒的塞入大量寫實資訊。他們形容的情緒少，而用於表達的情緒多。不甚輕盈哪，沒有那些華麗的文藻，卻在書寫之中透出一種不浮華卻貼近骨髓的認知，讓人能夠被感動。

而寫作上，架構大、心眼多，所以能峰迴路轉。

只是看著看著就沉默了，一如之前的兩本Nightwatch, Daywatch一樣。形於色外的無奈……

Sentimental

疼痛總是一陣一陣，沒來由的，被淡淡的惆悵勾起。

這樣難過的時候，總會念著詩經，念著歌曲，念著能解懷我心緒的東西。

青青子衿，悠悠我心，縱我不往，子寧不嗣音？
……挑兮達兮，在城闕兮。一日不見，如三月兮！

好想念從前的那一切。從朦朧的回憶裡看出去，似乎只有歡笑，沒有憂煩與淚水。你知道嗎？

而被同樣重複的事物所吸引，我想這是命定……。就是這樣了。好也罷，不好也罷。
就該是這樣了。畢竟此時的我如此膽怯。

Por que.

My thought flew away...

After all I've betrayed myself, haven't I?

Becoming someone I dislike.

My carelessness ruined it all.

Gosh I hate this. Lo, please raise me up from this mess...

Human heart.

人都是自私的，不要多想。
你想的事情，怎麼可能。

學

我想我還是做不到。
How u gotta arrange your life, your mind, and your heart?

How u gotta handle the mess.

愛管閒事，幼稚，膽小，彆扭，莫名其妙。

I'm so tired of trying being nice sometimes...